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how does it feel like, to know ur 'father' lies to u always.
how does it feel like, to know ur 'father' would pay driving lessons for another woman, but not his own daughter.
how does it feel like, to know ur 'father' has a house and u've always dreamed of living in one, but yet when he has it, u dun even stay there, yet some other woman does.
how does it feel like, to know ur 'father' has TONS of women.
how does it feel like, when ur 'father' brings a different one every year tt cousins (even young ones) start talking.
how does it feel like, when u've been cheated too many times to count.
how does it feel like, when u know u should nv believe again but yet u always do again n again.
sometimes, i feel myself just slipping into the shy mood. i cant even stop. it's like suddenly i'll just cant talk. n for the life of me, I CANT TALK!
sometimes, i feel myself just slipping into the angry mood. i cant even stop. it's like suddenly i'll just get so angry. n for the life of me, I'LL JUST BLOW UP!
i think i need circle time tomorrow as much as those kids needs it.
i wish i had a boyfriend who drives a car! haha
anyway i wanted to blog yesterday, but mood was somehow spoilt. thank goodness he told me no hard feelings. was feeling kinda down cuz i dint wanna be on the other end of being horrible. i know how sometimes a particular person above you does something, somehow it cant be salvaged :(
sorry.
anyway, results results results. 3As, 1B, b3, 2 merits... PRAISE THE LORD! :) for not giving me a c5 for gp and 2 ungraded.. but somehow as humans, we're hard to satisfy eh. cant help wishing for an A for econs. why couldnt i? what did i do wrong? sighhh.
so it was teaching most of the day, meeting mrs cyrene cheong :) many times... so scary k. i saw faye tan, i was terrified, n my whole pouch crashed to the ground. i spilled my whole bottle of water all over the table, it drenched my calculator and my laptop and my table top. life had never been tt bad. it got worse when i saw my name where i didnt wanna see it. on the 3As list :(
ah well.... so after all the suspension n the feeling of doom, i took my result slip, n left the mess of ppl milling around the desk to take a look at my results. b3 for gp! i WAS SO RELIEVED! B for econs... expected larh haha ah well :( couldnt read my result slip cuz i dint understand wadever.. felt quite disappointed cuz thot 2S were ungraded so ah well...... but it could've been worse so walked around quite abit.. till mr tearle cheng asked me how i did.. showed him result slip he was like 'hmmm chem s merit not bad ah'.. i was 'HUH? merit?!' he said 'yarh TWO is merit ONE is dist' i was like HUH HUH HUH! cuz i saw 2 TWOs......
then i started jumping for joy.
i got 2 merits!! woohoooo! like what the............. marking must've been super lenient! :)
so i was happy.....
walked ard sch with lols neem pam
there was orientation preparation
took sectionals, felt rather lousy
chilling in band room felt quite long ago
brought neem up to staffroom to introduce to eugene
ate fish n chips
went to subway
irritated with tuition kid
rest is in main blog. goodbye good day :)
cant help feeling i'm a let-down.
stupid stupid stupid :(