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Despite the lack of sleep, it wasnt that bad and twas actually a pretty good day! G'day everyone!
Pretty good start to the morning where I met our new boss in the lift and got started talking about the thing I do most outside office hours. Makes me happy! What else? And in the process, I might just have gotten Dan a potential customer! Hehe :)
The whole day has been reallyyyy productive. Worked hard, tried not to make too many mistakes and get everyone pissed. Had a good lunch with Marilyn! :) And then back to more work, until 4pm where productivity severely decreased....
Plus we had Magnum ice cream which made me a very very happy girl! Jesper's treat! Because Denmark got into Champions league for soccer. Not that i'll know anything about.......
And we had the new M1 corporate plan which got us all excited. Plus the potential leave days to take next year! Plus all the talk about HDB and flats and funiture and marriage and benchmarking and and and.... It was just very festive!
Well well well... It's all in the mind. Always. In anything, that applies no?
Good training days are when there's good training company and there are many factors to make up one. Speed is definitely a key. Both must first be on the same fitness level. Then the most important thing is to have the same level of passion, same goal, same motivation and objective, without which, it'll never work. And of course the added jovialness and comradeship.
That's what made Leewei such a great training partner at the very start, because we had the same passion and outlook towards all these! Until he started complaining he's old......... TSK! HEhehehe :)
Good training days are therapeutic. They make you smile for days on end and helps carry you through some down moments. Good training days are what stays in your memory and brings the random smile when your thoughts chance upon them.
And then again, it's an old word -- therapy
Back to the days of old :)
Now maybe I wouldn't wake up THAT early tmr...... hmmmmm..
I'm actually pretty terrified to ride alone in the dark! Company would be very much appreciated, as always!
But if the heart's not in it, neither is the body, nor the mind, it's better to be on my own.
The best training partners are those with the same goal and passion to improve, just like how I remember those days with Leewei and then Rod, happy fun despite the crazy track intervals hehe
Okay here's to a safe ride tmr! I'm quite terrified I'll get banged haha
And so, I'm probably gonna die in the office tmr because it's close to 1 am and i'm not anywhere near the bed. In fact, I'm sitting in the dark kitchen (just because I like the dark) typing words into an empty box on my favourite lappie called joybook. (ironically)
And so, in short, I can't seem to do ANYTHING right these days. It doesn't help that everyone's so quick to judge and impatient with me. I want to find the confidence but yet I'm faltering at every single step. Unspoken words. Oh dear me.
And so, I just want to have a big good cry, to let everything out. To let all the tears that have been wanting to fall, out. But I hate crying at home because there's no where you can. All the things stuck in my nose, makes me feel like I'm gonna suffocate and die or something. I wanna blow my nose but I can't cuz everyone (mainly the other person in close proximity) will know and I hate to show ppl that I'm crying. Doesn't just about everybody feels the same?
And so, I'm not too sure how I'm gonna run a race with a flag-off at 5.15am in 4 days.
And so, the highlight of the day is definitely the run with Henry. Really, I miss all that company at training. Today's the first day it's been sooooooo full in a long time, just because recruitment fair's just over! Hence all the newbies. I miss having such run sessions, good heart-to-heart talks which helps you to find your sanity amidst all these things which makes me feel so lost.
And so, the headache thing is going real bad now, I can't find a person I can talk to, and did I mention I think I'm gonna die in the office tmr?
Okay it's 1.01am. The birds are chirping out. Goodnight world.
And may tomorrow be a better day :(
I miss those nights in hall.
I really love, how after a long day of school and training, I go for a evening run and statics. After that, I shower nice and clean. And then, sit in the quiet bright cooling room. With the air con on. Just the gentle humming. And eat either PBB, pasta or noodles.
It's so calming and peaceful.
It's the part of the day I most look forward to.
ANd then, hop into the cold cold bed of mine! Cold because the aircon was on.
Now, trigger balling is hard work.