And so..........
Thursday, September 09, 2010
12:41:00 am
And so, I'm probably gonna die in the office tmr because it's close to 1 am and i'm not anywhere near the bed. In fact, I'm sitting in the dark kitchen (just because I like the dark) typing words into an empty box on my favourite lappie called joybook. (ironically)
And so, in short, I can't seem to do ANYTHING right these days. It doesn't help that everyone's so quick to judge and impatient with me. I want to find the confidence but yet I'm faltering at every single step. Unspoken words. Oh dear me.
And so, I just want to have a big good cry, to let everything out. To let all the tears that have been wanting to fall, out. But I hate crying at home because there's no where you can. All the things stuck in my nose, makes me feel like I'm gonna suffocate and die or something. I wanna blow my nose but I can't cuz everyone (mainly the other person in close proximity) will know and I hate to show ppl that I'm crying. Doesn't just about everybody feels the same?
And so, I'm not too sure how I'm gonna run a race with a flag-off at 5.15am in 4 days.
And so, the highlight of the day is definitely the run with Henry. Really, I miss all that company at training. Today's the first day it's been sooooooo full in a long time, just because recruitment fair's just over! Hence all the newbies. I miss having such run sessions, good heart-to-heart talks which helps you to find your sanity amidst all these things which makes me feel so lost.
And so, the headache thing is going real bad now, I can't find a person I can talk to, and did I mention I think I'm gonna die in the office tmr?
Okay it's 1.01am. The birds are chirping out. Goodnight world.
And may tomorrow be a better day :(
