In Christ alone will I glory
Though I could pride myself in battles won
For I've been blessed beyond measure
And by His strength alone I overcome
Oh I could stop and count successes like diamonds in my hands
But those trophies could not equal
to the grace by which I stand
In Christ alone
I place my trust
And find my glory in the power of the cross
In every victory,
May it be said of me
My source of strength
My source of hope
Is Christ alone
In Christ alone glory will I glory
For only by His grace I am redeemed
And only His tender mercy
Could reach beyond my weakness to my need
And now I seek no greater honour
Then just to know Him more.
And to count my gains but losses
to the glory of my Lord
In Christ alone,
I place my trust
And find my glory in the power of the cross
In every victory
let it be said of me
My source of strength
My source of hope
Is Christ alone
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Today, I heard lee wei's pitter patter of footsteps down his block's stairs, across the connecting bridge, up my block's stairs and hearing them approaching and stopping at our door. (hM can recognise it VERY well) For the last time I would think so. Today, marcus n leewei shouted over 'BYE JOCELYN' (at the different times they left) for probably the last time. Our room in it's current state: THERE. That's their room. Bottom row, middle square. the bottom most left window. That's what I see always on my left. That's how we talk across :) I hate it most when it's dark. Because it means they're not there. You know, I've come to depend on them so much. When anything happens and roomie is not around, it's them I first turn to :) It's time to move on, as much as these happy times remain. Shelve these memories into yet another box of happiness ready to be taken out, flipped through, and smiled at. Today, during quiet time, I learnt about pruning. How God prunes us, removes some parts of our lives, to make way for branches which will be able to bear more fruit. So, I'm gonna learn how to trust in Him. There'll be a way for me to get a hall. If there isn't, I know He'll make a way where everything will turn out fine whatsoever :)
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Looking back over these 2 days, I feel nostalgia hitting, hard.
Yesterday morning I had driving after like 2 weeks. I think I forgot QUITE ABIT of parking.
After which, headed back to hall where I met Shumin at our hall bus stop surprisingly! So off to FAL together. I think that's the last time I'll be heading there from hall 15.
HanJie talked like nobody's business. I think he was quite funny! :)
Failed attempt to swim! After SEVEN freaking laps, besides the fact that there was tons of chinamen there I wanted to puke seriously. So disgusting. THEN, when I stopped, something got into my eye, I blinked, and $100 came shooting out of my eye and INTO THE WATER! THANK GOD nobody came near me during that time (and move the waters) and by a MIRACLE (seriously) I managed to catch it, LOSE IT, and catch it again. So I gave up on swimming. And tried to run. BUT I forgot to bring a proper rubber band. The one I used for swimming is like un-rubberised. SO hair kept like bouncing around. I was so irritated I gave up after 800m. (IMAGINE!) Gym was out since they were having papers.
HOW PATHETIC.
SO, I just went back to hall.
And went out for dinner at JP at 8pm. First time trying Crystal Jade! Xiaolongbao was pretty yummy. But I was like SO FULL. We had BEN AND JERRY'S one free tub from leewei's friend who works there and thus had 3 tubs for free and gave one to him! SO we ate ate ate. And then, it was gone. I ended up sleeping at like 1+ and waking up at like 9+ the next day.
To the pool we went. Reached about 11 in the end and swam till almost 12. Atrocious sun! At this rate, I'm like gonna get skin cancer. Sets were uh okay? I think marcus is madly FAST tho! HOW am I gonna improve :(
We went NIE gym afterwards. It was a pretty cool place. First time there. Followed marcus around and we did 3 sets. I think I almost died. aND I think I'm super MUSCLE-LESS! :( I shall try harder the next time. After all that, marcus had this great idea to do the 7mins abs thing. I kinda cheated on quite abit. BUT it was an interesting workout which I think I might be trying by myself at home. Except without marcus there screaming away to continue doing, doubt I'll even be able to do HALF!
REALLY. what will we do without him. So congratulations to me, I did a canoe training session minus the running but plus swimming instead. (not a fair swop I'd say haha) Ate at NIE canteen. On our way walking through NIE, he intro-ed us to the art room. It's REALLY nice. In a cool sort of way. With stairs leading down into the abyss. haa. Into the big area with all the materials. SO COOL!
By the time we reached back it was like 3+ I think. Life is bliss like that don't you think so :) You know, I'm gonna miss them SO very much. I'm gonna miss walking back to hall15 together after coming from a training. I'm gonna miss having them a window shout away. I'm gonna miss stupid things like marcus making WEIRD noises when his room is like DARK before turning on the lights. (like dots...) I'm gonna miss going over to their room to do stupid things, to just chill, talk rubbish, PRINT THINGS (hahha much thanks to leewei here).
Okay, that's marcus trying to sing into his spoon after last night's ice cream. Photo courtesy of his roomie! I think if marcus is gonna see this he'll scream! hhaa.
This was taken by my roomie a lonnnnng time ago, sometime in the beginning of this year. Leewei looks like he's enjoying his watermelon alot, and marcus looks like he's stoning at whatever I'm talking -.-
Headed over to town after work yesterday. Amazingly, I managed to find my way around to meet mj and xt at wisma. After which everybody met at taka's mos burger. Mj, xt, kev, ttk, pamwam, hM n ME! Headed to some ulu entrance of taka's tower B. Too much cigarette smoke for my liking. But good company more than made up for it :)
hM and kevin were like madly discussing their wonderful stageband-number-two (minus music) script. I was the camerawoman and we got it right on the first take! pro uh :) I LOVE MY TJBAND FRENS :)
Today was the first time in i-dunno-how-many-months that I didn't set any alarm for my hp. So i slept n slept n slept... for about 10half hours. BLISS. To PeaceCentre I went, to get piano books. Headed over to tj :) Haven't been there proper on a normal school day for sometime. Somehow, when I'm there for band, it seems like a much friendlier place. On a normal school day, it's rather lonely.
Went to dad's office and spent 1hr photocopying a whole bunch of stuffs! Home sweet home where I practised piano for 2hours! Been sometime since I did thAt. Starting on some books and songs. Gonna pretend I'm having lessons and make myself prac :)
leewei's cleaning his room. (amazing!)
{LEE}sMUrfFrOG says:
cleaning is a pain in the ass
{LEE}sMUrfFrOG says:
i don't know leh, seems like it's actually getting messier
Eugene's recent quote reads:
"You should aspire to inspire others before you expire."
THOSE were the days of quotes.
The most famous of all being:
"Don't Let Your Potential Limit You."
And the longest and hardest one to remember being:
"Education is a tool use to enable and empower people to do more, not for themselves but for others."
I could never manage to remember it.
Don't you just love memories? I like them so much.
And what I love about the other two is that they were so similar to me, and a joy to know we all love and worship the same God :)
People who I could turn to for good and godly advice and encouragement.
Learnt some things along the way :)
Some people like reading books, some people like watching shows. Some prefer one over the other. I think I'm someone who likes both equally much!
Satisfying~
Little kids came down to my house today instead. One ended up telling her mom: there's a monster in the house. (my sis) Tuition was just a short-dosage of 1hour where I found out my brains aren't THAT rusty after all.
I went to Toa Payoh library after which to borrow some rather interesting books. I borrowed Catherine Lim's novella: A Leap of Love. The book behind the movie The Leap Years. And I probably read it finish the time I would've taken if I had gone to watch the movie instead. Good read tho. I'm finding for more good books. Any recommendations?
Went for service at PL instead. I think I'll be going back to Adam. Somehow I find it, friendlier.
Alumni was GOOD! Although the drastic change from overflowing trumpets to none.... And although my batch was reduced to 3 of us + gen n twain. Nice to see more familiar faces around. Nice to play on a clarinet again. BEST to have luther and terence ho behind! (altho ter sounded weird today I wonder why) Luscious sounds is a joy to hear. I love playing parts with luther YOU KNOW YOU KNOW! I just feel, SO happyyyy. Sadly the jnrs stole the drum set for stageband. AYE. If not derrick would've been playing. IMAGINE!
Ended pretty early around 930pm. Tj was a happening place tonight. With guitar concert + band camp! The familiar smell of the recital studio. Watched the juniors do their stageband. Many good laughs we had with ter ho, luther, hM, ttk.... Memories :) Still I think they're way ahead of time. 2 weeks to concert and everyone already learnt the dance! I think 2 weeks to our concert, our script was just starting to fall in place. We learnt our dance in one week I should think.
Left tj at close to 11pm. Took luther's UBER COOL car to princess macs where we met a bunch of ppl from our batch and above. Guitar seniors who came to watch guitar concert, out of whom one was ................ haa. Only got onto 31 at like 1140pm! And reached home at some unearthly hour.
I don't know why, band was good today. Although I haven't played for like one month. The first thing I had to play in the band, first piece, first note, was some solo part. Haa. What a joke. Aye I still think I'm too soft!! I miss tj band! :)
Seriously, haven't had luther behind me for like SO LONG!! Aye, I love it loads! The luscious sound, the in-tune-ness (relative to what I've been hearing in ntu), plus the steadiness... Always coming in correctly with correct rhythm. It would've been enhanced had the trumpeters been around! With mavis lookit n william! Godspeed would've been like A JOY! since the tbones were like powerhouse haa! :)
Now to bed, cuz I've like 6hrs of sleep left.
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Exams are quite screwed and it's all my fault :(
I was thinking after stats, that there's freedom for the next 3 months! That's when I realise I'm taking special sem and I'll be having a paper again in 1half month's time.
So much for freedom.
Today was a sort of nice day.
For the lack of using my brain too much, I shall just do a boring blog entry (marcus' definition) and blog about my day.
Sleep was quite bad.
Stats wasn't very good.
Went J.P. with roomie.
I ate prawn noodles.
Surprising, considering I quite dislike the yellow noodles and I detest bean sprouts. I dunno what got into me.
Oasis lounge is a pretty cool place.
Went there for hM to get sistic tics.
Back to hall and off to the pool with roomie n marcus.
A lazy day where we only did 400, 300, 200, 100.
All 3 of us were drowning in different ways!
GOOD company though.
I'll miss them.
Really it's such a coincidence. To choose that block. To choose that unit. And to find out we're opposite. After getting to know each of them differently. The surprise to find out they're ROOMIES. Even more so, tt marcus' an ex-band member n who apparently claims he's 'artsy'. I think I'm still a band-it at heart.
The talk was an eye-opener. I think, I can't socialise for NUTS. 2 people actually came UP to talk to me. Talk was pretty good though. I was well entertained for 2 speakers except for the first one where I started planning my things-to-do list and found out after exams as usual is just another start on the list-of-things-to-that-I-put-off-due-to-exams.
Well I was reminded of the time, oh-so-long-ago, on the first day I met eugene teo! when he came late. haa! I remembered sticking to him like glue. We had like tea-break. And the uncertain-ness of socialising. He said: Best thing to do, is to hold a drink in your hand. Which makes alot of sense.
I think I must've looked quite a sight. carrying a rather fat back with a jacket hooked over, in a normal top + jeans + exam covered asics shoes. No wonder ppl came over to talk to me haa. I was exposed to the horrible-ness of how some ppl are so desperate to make themselves known.
home sweet home.
I NEED FRIENDS!
I realise I'm so friendless HAHA.
sighhhhh I want to go Tripod.
But it's something I confirm wouldn't wanna go alone.
AYE :(
jocelyn says:
mannn tingzhang i miss tjband!
jocelyn says:
GR sounds so long ago
Qtz. june hurry up come..169/24 says:
eh ya lor
Qtz. june hurry up come..169/24 says:
we should just go one day and take all the piece and play
YES PLEASE! :)
What if
Just close your eyes and be absorbed in.
The feeling.
That just carries your soul.
Song without words.
Yet still being able to do so much.
Looks like the passion still remains,
if I'm still closing my eyes with a smile.
Give in.
It's just too hard to let go.
Sometimes, I wonder if it's a good or bad thing to be so indifferent! Haha! (I think I'm learning exclaimation marks from Marilyn!)
Lesson learnt! Put in your best always!
And leave the rest to God! :)
So I got another tuition kid.
Funny how everybody says I've no time to find boyfriend.
Like is that all everyone thinks about!
Somehow I just keep accepting more work assignments.
I find quite abit of joy in that! :)
Do platonic relationships exist?
Ever wondered why I always do this to myself! Either that, or maybe I should wonder why I'm so friendless! Haha. So I guess I'll be going for that assest/wealth management talk, all on my own!
AAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH.
Now, why do I still insist on going. AYE.
Hanjie's msn dp:
TJC staffroom created by US!
As usual when exams come along, it's when you start to do all the nonsense and think of all the nonsense and start making post-exam plans which in actual fact, are never carried out after exams. But due to my restless-ness, here goes:
1) SWIM SWIM SWIMMM
2) Buy piano books for students
3) Asset/Wealth management talk on the day itself!
4) Prepare tuition, mark work, materials!
5) Go back tj! See students, lin sheng! tj band! hopefully get notes n materials, run lucky heights/bedok jetty!
6) Army marathon?
7) Tripod08 facilitator?
8) Pack hall area
9) Move everything back!
10) Eunos carehut!
11) PA Trainer's workshop
HOW am I gonna do well for exams.
I can't wait for this to be over!
3 months here I come! :)
On another note, I wonder how some ppl are really oblivious to things around them. I really wonder if it's acting blur on purpose, or REALLY never realise. I'm amazed.
I think it's gonna take aLOT to make me genuinely like a guy again.
when moodiness meets moodiness
Learning to trust in God totally.
I got back my clarinet exam results! So excited wanted to tell somebody. But was looking through my msn list of contacts, realise no one will understand till I saw wendy's name! ayeee i miss her :) and i miss the world of music i was immersed in back then in tkgs.
Me: sigh why isit raining all day!
Leewei: haha, do i have to give u the cloud explanation again?
I think this is the 3rd time I'm like asking him this!
Big girls don't cry.
SUBWAY NEXT WEEK!
woohoooo :)
How can I be having a mid-life crisis now?! The next one's suppose to be when I'm 40. I guess I'm just trying to find my footing. Trying out new stuffs, learning much, I guess all these leads to some uncertainty about who I am, my capabilities...
A happy heart makes the face cheerful, but heartache crushes the spirit. Proverbs 15:13
I don't like to wait! 1) clarinet exam results 2) special sem course allocation 3) coursework grades 4) HRM test results (the screwed one)
The feeling of being on hold is quite horrible. After all the anticipation, when it DOES happen it's like so anti-climax.
It's always strange how some things happen a little too late. How things could've been so much more different if it happened at another time, earlier. But this time round, I wouldn't mind it happening everyday! haa!
I think why it didn't work out was cuz nothing was geniune in the first place, I was too young and immature, and most importantly, I got too tired of making decisions all the time. Sometimes, people shouldn't be too nice you know.
Tons of work to do. I think I should sell my stats summary. It's like the nicest thing on earth haa!