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Wednesday, March 26, 2008

11:19:00 pm

I'm such a happy and self satisfied girl today. It was a really good ending to a dotsss day.

830 lecture was pretty fine. I learnt stuffs. 1030 went to leewee with hanjie to print stuffs. after which (he's mad) n we headed over to adm. The performance was fine. I dunno why i dint realise this earlier (feel stupid now) but the keyboard was like the shoRt one. which means most of my notes were like out of range. so all throughout i was mostly panicking, uh which note to press. funnily, we got our wanted technical error. the person who came to my rescue 3 times was so nice, my tkgs zai clarinet snr (with the luscious tone which supports the sectn). so nice to think it's someone who's always 'taken care' of us since last time till now. she said hi! n i think she only could recognise me cuz lols told her haa.

my much wanted LUNCH AT CAN2 :) took Bus A a big round to S4, went early for stats. sat in the room n talked to gen for sometime. so cheated luh stats. feeling very sian cuz my frens went for earlier one n marilyn was in elective so i was like alone. (i think i have a social problem) den he also NEVER TAKE ATTENDANCE. like what the.

so came back to hall. left late for swimming trials cuz it was like gonna rain. so anw, trials was quite horrible but good. haha. okay luh timing not THAT good but im SO self satisfied! i didnt know after so long, i could actually finish swimming one length of butterfly! okay luh but if i cant actually something should be wrong. but this is really totally like for 7 years never. but i almost died really. cuz i did double breathing. (just so i could go faster) n i was almost dying of air. really too much energy haha. breastroke was as bad. cuz usually i glide. but i know 50m sprint is like cannot glide if u wanna go fast. but i've never really tried all out choing before. i did just now. n i think i almost died again. but it's nice to get all your timings. quite disappointed didnt try out backstroke. it'll be nice to have ALL timings.

after which when they left.... slacked around some w valmond marcus leewei then tried to improve turnings. but i feel legs r so retarded... haha.. at 7.45pm laughed away at how the lifeguards tried to get tt china guy out of the water... (blowing the whistle right BESIDE him!) then we went to try fins! the one n only time i tried before was long ago in pri5 morning training when joanne brought a pair... n all i remembered was how one kick sends u flying. it was pretty cool to have it on again, where one kick send u flying again! :) had some fun going up n down. then valmond left, leewei went to run, left me n marc practising turns n swimming while waiting for lance. den we left for can2 dinner!

i really feel so satisfied.
train hard i will!
just the motivation i need :)
praise be to God! :)

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Tuesday, March 25, 2008

8:42:00 pm

I've starved myself of food and company the entire day! I think I've yet to grow up.

HRM today, the question that would be asked if you wanted to be chief judge:
"Do you have the courage to sentence somebody to death?"

Food for thought. Courage. It actually takes courage.

I hate time trials of any sort. I skipped one, I landed up with 3. One was pretty okay, another sucked badly, one has yet to be over.
How sad. I was at my peak like 2 weeks ago. Stopped for sometime due to unforeseen circumstances. And then all the time trials come piling up. I think it's all a mess. When I was training so hard, there's no purpose or reason or need. When it really matters, I'm like way below what I can do.

REALLY demoralising :(

A mozzie bit me behind me ear that day. Amazing how it managed to bite BEHIND my ear. It was terribly uncomfortable.

Tmr's gonna be a looonnnngggg day. currently it's 830-1030 aa102 lecture, 1030-130 off to lols' singing class to perform, 130-3 lunch break (can 2 i hope!) 3-5 stats make up tutorial, 5-6 rush back to hall and move my butt down to SRC. 6 some swim time trial (which should take half an hr) followed by a much needed long swim + run, dinner at can2 (again! i hope!)

I was suppose to run n swim last night (i didnt)
I was suppose to swim this morn (i did!)
I was suppose to run tonight (i dint)
I am suppose to run n swim tmr evening (i hope i will!)
I am suppose to swim on thurs morn
I am suppose to run on thurs night (since i didnt just now)
I am suppose to swim on friday

I am suppose to be motivated, not so lazy, and train hard.
How much can my determination carry on I wonder.

Sometimes I really wonder if I'm trying to be somebody I'm not meant to be.
But if not this, then what?

Eunice is someone I really so admire. GPA 4.8! ON THE DEAN'S LIST! (today i was looking around nbs website haha) doubling in BnF and THM. Captain of NTU's bi team. does the nus sprint cat dist in 43mins! Can run as fast as the guys (ahh!)

time to, CUT THE FATS.

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12:07:00 pm

TODAY,
I swallowed a mouthful of chlorine water.
Yuck.

Saturday was pretty good.
GREAT to eat opposite tj fishball noodles again.
Wonderful to be walking into tj, with so many new n pretty cool changes.
(check out facebook, i think kev would've put pics)
But as I stood outside bandroom, really so many mixed feelings, but I know it'll never be the same ever again.
But really, those days were tHeBEST :)

Princess macs after band. Good company, good laughter, it was nice :)

tj and tjband will always have a special place inside me.
truth is, many tjc-ians we've met in uni, somehow also have this fierce silent pride in tj which only tj ppl can understand n share w each other :)

no regrets aye :)

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Saturday, March 22, 2008

12:17:00 pm

GOODBYE PROJECTS!

Yesterday was a lovely day. For the first time in days/weeks/months, didn't have anything on! Hence I slept for 10hrs. BLISS! Finished 3 chapters of OB too, played piano, woke up 10mins before 5pm by sis who dragged me down to watch 'guilty'. Came home to run.

What a lovely day.

Thursday was preparation for last presentation for OB. believe it or not, my group didn't even have a FULL group meeting, and we didn't rehearse at all. haa. but all went well. after which had stats meeting where I went to NBS lounge for the first time!

okay, time to head off for tuition, after which I'll be going to the place I love tons :)

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Tuesday, March 18, 2008

1:20:00 am

Recently I've been thinking much (even in my half-sleeping mode)

A perfect guy would be one who is:
1) confident
2) smALL ego (all guys have ego, gotta accept tt haa)
3) good in IT -.- (cuz i'm quite a noob n i'll go mad if no one can help me)
4) sporty! (strong luh)
5) Christian of course
6) pretty cool of he's a music person too (but cant ask for much uh)
7) oh most importantly, taller than me. >180 preferably HAHHA
8) smart
9) rich!
10) cute!

hahhahhaha! that's called perfect. actually 1-7 can alr. haa.

ah well. a break from all the mad projects. im really like exhausted.

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Friday, March 07, 2008

12:16:00 pm

I was bored during stats class. (okay depressed more like cuz quiz is really a disappointment) so i went blog-hopping. and chanced upon kevin's blog. a mistake. cuz there were really so many gruesome pics!! ahhhH!! like ouch........

u know, tt day's concert was the first band concert tt went by without me taking a single pic. (if u dun count the one w ttk mj kev as one) i dint even bother i dint even care i couldnt even wait for it to be over.

it's true tt band has been everything so much to me over the past few YEARS. into my 8th year now. how much the passion has left. so much tt im even wondering if i made the right choice.

okay off to swim! :)

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Sunday, March 02, 2008

11:50:00 pm

i SO dont wanna get back to reality. of work work, school school. i think i'm in the wrong course. sighhhh. i so wanna take music. (it earns me more money + i'll be enjoying what i'm doing) but then again, it all boiled down to not having enough money to go overseas study. music is TERRIBLY expensive :(

u can imagine my joy when we played finish our last note of last night's concert which lasted till 10pm when we finished playing. tt's like how late!! 2half hrs. terrible. i was dead by then. with a terrible headache. i loved the second half tho. cuz i loved where i was sitting! (RIGHT IN FRONT OF WANCAI WITH A MILLION LUSCIOUS SAX SOLOS) wahhahhaa

i miss my jc frens. mixing too much w older ppl in ntu. marcus leewei etc. everywhere ppl r so old. i dunno. it just felt SO good to see kevin mingjie ttk. it felt really good to be out w dr nivla, danny, elinor, ttk afterwards.

goodbye band. i hope i'll survive training.

days have been rather terrible. 29th feb consisted of swim in morn, ride home, lunch, fell asleep in the afternoon, tuition 7-9, studied a litttlleeeee. 1st march consisted of waking up at 5 (due to sis's alarm) den really waking up groggily at 6+. dragging myself out of bed n down n out on the bike by 7am. down to ecp w leewei. i think im a hazard on the roads n im amazed i wasnt knocked over. reached ecp. macs breakfast. cycled all the way till the far far end of ecp. reached near the finishing point just to see sunny run past. IF I STAYED I MIGHT'VE SEEN CLEMENT! i think he's prob in front. met LOADS of ppl there. jessica! mingjie! (haa what a joke) loads of tj ppl ard! etc etc. sis got 2nd. mok 2nd too haha. aye they're so cool. so interesting to see the top10 guy's list. like SO MANY PAYSC! 4 of them? or more. aye i'm so proud of where i came from :)

home, at 11+, gobbled down lunch, ride to vch at 12.45pm. rehearsal 1-5pm. concert at night. thank goodness for crazy dr nivla n the free ride. hahaa. how appropriate medicine student. reached home like 11+.

2nd march sunday, today, 9am teaching, till 730pm, choing home, off on the bike to prac for exam till like 10+, ate dinner like 10+.

im exhausted w so much work to do.

lance waved excitedly n motioned for us to go over! but ayeeeee. was caught up elsewhere n dint get to see him. AHHHHH. hahhaa. so cool so cool. cool ppl will remain cool. i went to redeem gifts for 3 ppl whose names were all on the board! aHH! hahhaa so cool so cool. ah well..................... i dun have tt much determination :(

gdnite

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