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hello :)
Friday, January 18, 2008
10:45:00 pm
Today's post should be titled:
How to Get Over Disappointment
okay. what happened was, i shouldnt've waited so long. apparently, being the last minute worker i always am, i took too long to get around to doing INSTEP application. i thought deadline was today, but i didnt know it was 2pm. so what happened was i missed the deadline, after i realised, i thought maybe i can go down personally.
so i printed n went all the way down (okay or maybe up) to IRO at international house. only for them to say nopenopenopenopenopenopeNOPE.
okay, i was crushed. very. roomie knows how much i really really want to go. i know myself best how badly i wanted to go.
i went opposite there to LT2. n sat there n uh kinda teared. for 1/2 hr. not my fault. it just wouldnt stop. (hey it rhymes) again, i felt so stupid, disappointed n super pissed w myself. but i'm glad to say my faith strengthened. my heart ached seriously. i so badly wanted to go.
i sat there n tore my application form up n folded 3 hearts.
sighhhh. crying out my heart to God does help. i know i know i know it. i know he was holding me all the way tho. i just wanted time on my own.
As long as I have breath,
i will find a way to say
that I love You.
though the world may pass away
I'll still find a way to say
that I love You.
But i guess it's all for the better. altho i dont think i'll go overseas then. cuz yr2 sem1 is the most ideal time. too many things in sem2 n yr3 is not a v wise idea. so yeah. anw, i was foreseeing finanacial difficulties. so yeah doubt i'll be able to go financially anw. tt means i'll still continue getting my monthly income from teaching. i'll be able to join AIESEC, biathlon n train for ivp swimming! i'll be able to join tj alumni (the cool ppl) for concert n maybe competition! n tt means the overseas holiday i wanna give my mom at the end of the year gets more feasible! :)
so all in all, i guess staying in spore is good.
just worried i wont get hall. travelling wont be easy aye.
BUT MAYBE MY SISTER CAN GET A HALL N I CAN CAMP! oh man i just realised!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and i guess if God has positioned me here in NTU, (after all it was cuz i felt tt calling tt i chose here) he has great things in stored for me. already im thankful for the encouragement He has shown me :) i guess my perspective n relationship with God has really changed since the camp! :) n I'M LoVInG iT! :)
i walked thru north spine. n found the most glorious clouds n blue blue blue blue skies. i stood there, enjoying it all. with the maNy weird birds.. i think they're swallows?!!! swopping around. it struck me how great Thou art. to be able to create such things. we're merely His creations. imagine Him creating us, every organ, every workings in our body, such tt man still havent yet finished discovering. if all the clouds r His creations, n it's alr so beautiful, how much more gloriously wonderful Heaven must be!!
then i decided to turn ard n leave, n i saw the most wonderful sunset. standing at the level above lee wee nam there. i stood in awe of the sunset. the layers of clouds, made me think im in an aeroplane, being able to see those layers. nv knew it possible to see tt sort of thing on land.
the wind was gloriously nice. all in all, it was an awesome evening.
and i thank God for reminding me of His love, His awesomeness, and His promises for me :)
Welcome to Singapore.