Wednesday, February 06, 2008
9:45:00 pm
:)
ayeeeeeee
like mok (the mugger) says, cny is the time to study! my sentiments exactly. hence all my textbooks r currently at home.
im super irritated n depressed. throwing money down the drain! ahhhhhh. how could i let it smash onto the wall! sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
this year not much of a cny. altho tt's been like my 'dream' always. not to have to go out visiting. but i quite like the idea of travelling around spore. once a year. going familiar places where u happen by every once a year. having the feeling of unknown tt u might meet some ppl u've always wanted to meet around. (it was enhanced when on the way to dinner jus now sis suddenly said 'trevor hu' n he was standing at the road there. another ex-swimming fren) but i guess it's good too. can stay home study! busy too with meeting up w frens :)
but somehow, cant help but feel, as the youngest, everything ends too early for me. since young, i could nv grow finish. like sis grew out of playing young kiddy things like cooking. so i had to play it alone. (ok luh at times she played w me) but still. i had to grow out sooner. den came the chauffering. sis had transport to school every morn till after jc2. for me, i had to start going to sch on my own in jc. cuz left one person to fetch dad doesnt want to.
n i guess i'll have to do with the lesser ang pao money haha. bro stops at 24. me at 19. abit unfair huh. 5years x minimum $300 = $1500. how unfair. plus since him being older n cny near his bday he always gets more anYway.
studying is good.
feeling very sian over alot of things tho. ayeeeeeeeeeee.
