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Sunday, October 05, 2008
7:46:00 pm
13 more lessons at the piano place! I'm determined to leave there the moment my contract ends! Then I'll be FREE! I haven't felt free for 2 whole years. What does it feel like? I really REALLY wanna know. A little tired of teaching. Only after 2 years somemore! Haha. So much for it being my future profession eh.
It's gonna be a long and tiring few weeks ahead, drawing nearer to exams! (that means project submissions and deadlines!)
I wanna fly, in more ways than one.
I wanna fly, like I'm swimming real fast.
I wanna fly, like I'm running real fast.
I wanna fly, like I'm cycling real fast.
(but I'm more scared I'll go flying off the bike actually)
I wanna fly, like sit on a plane and go places!
I wanna fly, like get out from teaching there.
I wanna fly, like to a place where...........
actually I dunno. I'm quite ok here.
In this permanent single deluxe.
It's like the room of my own I'd always wanted!
It's all in the mind.
I've been visualising alot.
It's been constantly occupying my mind.
It'll be over in one week's time!
I should be getting used to this feeling after this.
The heart-pumping, before it all starts.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
I won't DQ. (that's not my worry)
I won't choke on water. (just as long as I don't look down)
I won't faint in the water. (I've never fainted!)
I won't feel like dying. (I know, I will.)
AND THE JUMPING BLOCK AT TPY IS HIGH.
I wanna go for mad tough trainings too.
Where you swim 6km in 2hrs.
Where even my sis thinks is totally shag after it.
But I'm too slow :(
I wanna go cycle with them.
Where you can cycle for long without going up and down scary hills like a million times. (tt's NTU)
But I'm too slow :(
I wanna run sets of 300m.
Where the coach doesn't believe my sis started at the correct place. (ie he was hinting she cheated!)
But I'm too slow :(
Every Friday evening, I enter into another world. Totally different from the one I'm currently in. But it's tough, to feel any love, especially with a super out-of-tune saxophone beside me, tt sometimes I can even see anneson making a face due to the sounds coming from beside me. But I'm glad even in all this nonsense sounds, tt it's good tt I'm still keeping in touch with playing! :)
It makes me wonder. In one year, somebody can improve 800m from 16+ to 14.33. Maybe I should've taken that path. Maybe. I can't say, that I've no regrets now actually. Haha. Ah welllll.....
But the friendships I made, now, THAT, I can truly say, no regrets :)