Fine, so be it.
Thursday, August 06, 2009
9:06:00 am
I feel like I'm a pendulum, swinging back and forth, back and forth, back and forth. Trying to find my focus badly.
And since I'm gonna be going out with ppl who can't decide and have been thrown the situation, I shall save my sms-es of letting them know the situation. After all, the only response I'll get back from a 4-msg-long msg will probably be "anything, u decide". Like, oKayy.
Truth is I'm rather annoyed. So mood-spoiler.
I feel like I've lost a friend. Reminds me a lot of that time back in tkgs when out of the blue, (really really blue), she just stopped talking to me. No one knew why. (Either that or they didn't tell me). Whatever it is, till this day, sometimes I still think about it and wonder why. It wasn't till like a long while later, during meetups with the rest that a tentative conversation could be carried out. With her initiating of course.
It feels so like it.
And like the previous time, I do wonder why.
But don't quite give a damn.
Like, to h***.
And for once, I really feel like saying what our captain says most often (haha) f***.
It's been a bad week. It's so hazy. Last week and I wanna train but I can't. And then all the plans so screwy. And filled with un-enthu ppl. Whatever.