Happy days are here to stay
Friday, November 06, 2009
11:16:00 pm
Thursday was slack. And the rain kept spoiling all the plans.
Today was a good day. AA306 saw some enlightenment. Thank God it didn't rain. So I had a good swim. Did the sets I did last year, only on crazier timings. It was a bench-marking session. And I was a little pleased. Thanks to Martti and Justin for doing the 16x50 with me haha if not I'll just make excuses or something. But usually as much as I dread doing it, (16mins of torture), after doing it, it really feels good. Like, it wasn't a wasted swim. I hope it feels that way for them too.
I think ppl who do such stuffs fall into 2 categories. Either you go away feeling really good, or vowing to yourself never to subject yourself to such torture again. Haha. I think it's like either you have it to wanna do it, or you dont. If you're in the latter category, I'm not quite sure how to communicate from there.
I'm trying to recapture the feeling from the beginning. Like how they always say "Don't forget the beginner's spirit". It's really true. It's time to start again, aim for something higher, and let's TRY! (tri!)
But I'm really thinking, why am I doing all this. Especially during today's swim. But there were moments like Andrew and Martti pacing me during the pulling. The surprising kicking timings. And the 50s, where I felt like the last time :)
How I wish my stretchcords are with me! :( Cuz I'm too lazy to wake up to brave the cold winds of the morning to run alone. And so it's gonna be a lousy weekend, wasting away! Oh no!
As much as I actually act like it's okay to be staying in Singapore I'm seriously very sad :( It's like I'm never meant to go overseas to study. From the overseas uni application thingy in JC, to the failed INSTEP application the previous year. And now, having gotten so far, to not be able to go. And it's always cuz of some really weird and retarded reason.
I so want out.
Screw it :(
